reality Archive

  • Being Enlightened and Being Alive

    Being Enlightened and Being Alive

    What does it mean to be the vast, singular awareness while simultaneously living in a physical body?  In innumerable physical...
  • Sending Love

    Sending Love

    I’ve been feeling an inexplicable yet palpable, edgy grief filled with gnarling anguish, waves of tenderness, and hints of nostalgia,...
  • I, No Bot

    I, No Bot

    I have been inadvertently weeding out potential suitors with a sort of Buddhist IQ test.  When I first moved to...
  • Data, Data Everywhere and Not a Drop to Think

    Data, Data Everywhere and Not a Drop to Think

    Analyzing the data for my dissertation is highlighting for me the limits of intellectual knowing.  Welcome to the Zen of...
  • From Suffering to Energy without Effort

    From Suffering to Energy without Effort

    A table of observations on how specific emotions transform automatically into blissful energy.
  • Transmutation on the Precipice of Unknowing

    Transmutation on the Precipice of Unknowing

    Watching unpleasant emotions quickly turn into raw energy, the key seems to be seeing through concepts.
  • Awake and Alive

    Awake and Alive

    Moments of luminous awareness, or awakening, are often described as an opening beyond oneself that encompasses everything just as it...
  • To Have and To Hold

    To Have and To Hold

    Mental imagery of the social landscape is just mental imagery. What do you have and hold when you love?
  • Delusion and Possibility

    Delusion and Possibility

    The deepest healing occurs when we open to the possibility that our perspective can change.
  • Bliss of the Unresolved

    Bliss of the Unresolved

    An otherwordly contentment filled my day today.  Something that should have caused me sadness brought me peace and tenderness instead. ...
  • Good Morning Moon

    Good Morning Moon

    The magic of this reality, synchronicities and signs and answered prayers, is good medicine for a time, but after awhile,...
  • All Good Things

    All Good Things

    A short story about the perpetuation of friendship in the face of grief and impermanence.
  • Tracing a Path from Buried Pain to Love

    Tracing a Path from Buried Pain to Love

    If you ask for healing, watch your thoughts. Sometimes the divine speaks with our own inner voice.
  • She Washed His Feet With Her Tears

    She Washed His Feet With Her Tears

    Forgiveness and redemption are healing, but you can still find wholeness even when others cannot offer it.
  • How Matter Reflects Mind

    How Matter Reflects Mind

    Thoughts on how the outer world reflects the inner world and the intricacies of manifestation.
  • The Feminine Path Through Suffering

    The Feminine Path Through Suffering

    Archetypal wisdom on how women’s “falling apart” can open the doors to awakening.
  • The Perfection of Being Human

    The Perfection of Being Human

    On the paradox of finding wholeness and redemption in the fact that we make mistakes.
  • The Power of Later

    The Power of Later

    Enter the real “now” by letting go of your concepts of the present.
  • The Psychiatrist, the Psychologist, and the Buddhist

    The Psychiatrist, the Psychologist, and the Buddhist

    Where does suffering originate, and how does one eliminate it? A psychiatrist is someone who, seeing an unusually sad character...
  • Zen Dancing: Samadhi Through Movement

    Zen Dancing: Samadhi Through Movement

    Learn to move with the feelings in your body, approaching them directly rather than through thought.
  • Stories of Awakening

    Stories of Awakening

    Below are accounts of awakening (e.g., satori, moksha, nirvana, enlightenment) reprinted from various sources, such as Zen Flesh, Zen Bones,...
  • Why Confront Your Demons?

    Why Confront Your Demons?

    An integration of Zen emptiness with New Age form offers one approach to healing our collective samsara.
  • Spring in the Dead of Winter

    Spring in the Dead of Winter

    In this frozen moment, your warm consciousness finds all existence waiting.
  • You Are Brand New

    You Are Brand New

    If you are beset by a negative self-image, especially one that is self-fulfilling and reflected back to you by others...
  • Bliss, Literally

    Bliss, Literally

    Again and again, I have this same experience.  Some situation in my life is causing pain, something I can hardly...
  • Breath It In

    Breath It In

    Encountering your worst fear, a situation that means the end of you, so it seems, sink into it.  Don’t try...
  • Finding Your Power

    Finding Your Power

    The tribal-minded people, like orchids, wither here.  The souls looking for sun and rain on the outside, for a hospitable...
  • The Island Underneath

    The Island Underneath

    I’m learning to ground myself in something deeper.  I’ve been reading more of Jan’s book (When Fear Falls Away, by...
  • A Boogie with Sole

    A Boogie with Sole

    For nearly a year, twice every month, I attended an event in town known as the Barefoot Boogie.  Set in...
  • Five Phases of Transformation

    Five Phases of Transformation

    I am being reassembled.  The process is unmistakeable.  It’s not over yet, but I feel myself entering a final phase,...
  • Close or Remain Open? Loving Past the Expiration Date

    Close or Remain Open? Loving Past the Expiration Date

    How do we continue to love those from whom we are estranged?  Should we remain open to those who move...
  • The Fine Line Between Absorbtion and Lucidity

    The Fine Line Between Absorbtion and Lucidity

    The ultimate goal of the spiritual path is to become lucid.  Mindfulness meditation, the favored technique for beginners, is a...
  • Cut Off, Part II

    Cut Off, Part II

    The function of compassion for those who feel cut off is to return them to the whole. This is not...
  • Cut Off: The Role of Compassion in Social Death

    Cut Off: The Role of Compassion in Social Death

    Among the most excruciating suffering one can endure is social death. Where does compassion fit in?
  • Paradoxes of the Path

    Paradoxes of the Path

    What if some experiences that look like personal failures are actually markers of spiritual growth?
  • Happy Crazy Eight Day

    Happy Crazy Eight Day

    An adventure in facing worst fears. This particular monster? Psychiatry. I enter with stigma and exit with side effects.
  • Breathing Under Water

    Breathing Under Water

    Reaching out for help can inadvertently foster the collective perception that we are all struggling to save ourselves.
  • The Secret Healers

    The Secret Healers

    The greatest healers in my life do not even know they are healing me, and most of the time, neither...
  • Flying By Instruments

    Flying By Instruments

    I woke up one morning feeling as though I’d been impaled on a spike, helpless, vulnerable, and shivering with agony. ...
  • Where Did They Go?

    Where Did They Go?

    I want to contact that which is real in others, but the meeting of minds never lasts.  The souls who...