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  • The Longing to Embody Divine Love

    The Longing to Embody Divine Love

    Last Saturday, in meditation, I merged with the heavy guilt seizing my body.  Moving through the outer layers, I touched...
  • Guilt Blindness and Befuddled Bodhisattvas

    Guilt Blindness and Befuddled Bodhisattvas

    “Oh, holy smokes!” I interrupted Mary in the middle of our conversation.  After more than a month, we had finally...
  • Data, Data Everywhere and Not a Drop to Think

    Data, Data Everywhere and Not a Drop to Think

    Analyzing the data for my dissertation is highlighting for me the limits of intellectual knowing.  Welcome to the Zen of...
  • Love Like You Cannot Imagine

    Love Like You Cannot Imagine

    In Tibet, they believe that it is possible to foresee, at the beginning of a relationship, how it will unfold,...
  • From Suffering to Energy without Effort

    From Suffering to Energy without Effort

    A table of observations on how specific emotions transform automatically into blissful energy.
  • Delusion and Possibility

    Delusion and Possibility

    The deepest healing occurs when we open to the possibility that our perspective can change.
  • All Good Things

    All Good Things

    A short story about the perpetuation of friendship in the face of grief and impermanence.
  • The Ultimate Psychic Boundary

    The Ultimate Psychic Boundary

    The notion of psychic boundaries reminds me of the boy who lived his life in a bubble.  Protection is lovely,...
  • Exquisite Tenderness: Cultivating a Blissful Compassion

    Exquisite Tenderness: Cultivating a Blissful Compassion

    Is your heart heavy today?  I could feel its weight just as the clouds began to fill the sky.  A...
  • Why the Heart Closes

    Why the Heart Closes

    Apathy often has its roots in the odd, unexpected body memory of prior pain that is evoked by new love.
  • Love Your Pain Self

    Love Your Pain Self

    When we experience pain, we create a pain self.  This pain self is connected to a subset of our usual...
  • Blissful Just As Things Are

    Blissful Just As Things Are

    Today, I stopped praying for things to get easier.  It just occurred to me that it wasn’t necessary.  For many...
  • You Are Brand New

    You Are Brand New

    If you are beset by a negative self-image, especially one that is self-fulfilling and reflected back to you by others...
  • Finding Your Power

    Finding Your Power

    The tribal-minded people, like orchids, wither here.  The souls looking for sun and rain on the outside, for a hospitable...
  • Still Luminous

    Still Luminous

    Last night, I was awake all night, while sleeping, enjoying another one of those full nights resting in clear, lucid,...
  • A Long Awaited Apology

    A Long Awaited Apology

    There comes a time when the dark forces in your life step into the light, remove their masks, and reveal...
  • Trusting that You Are Loved

    Trusting that You Are Loved

    When peace and tranquility, bliss even, begins to fill most every moment, healing feels complete.  These past few weeks, I’ve...
  • Find Love and Give It All Away

    Find Love and Give It All Away

    What happens when we treasure someone too much? A story of discovering the divine by crushing illusions.
  • A Boogie with Sole

    A Boogie with Sole

    For nearly a year, twice every month, I attended an event in town known as the Barefoot Boogie.  Set in...
  • Five Phases of Transformation

    Five Phases of Transformation

    I am being reassembled.  The process is unmistakeable.  It’s not over yet, but I feel myself entering a final phase,...
  • Journey to the Core

    Journey to the Core

    At the center of the earth is an iron core.  The inner core is solid yet hotter than the surface...
  • The Fine Line Between Absorbtion and Lucidity

    The Fine Line Between Absorbtion and Lucidity

    The ultimate goal of the spiritual path is to become lucid.  Mindfulness meditation, the favored technique for beginners, is a...
  • Ferris Wheel from Hell

    Ferris Wheel from Hell

    Mystics and philosophers often describe life as an amusement park ride, exciting at times or downright scary but without real...
  • Questioning Quarantine

    Questioning Quarantine

    A conversation in a cafe makes me question the belief that severe depression means love and affection are off limits.
  • Happy Crazy Eight Day

    Happy Crazy Eight Day

    An adventure in facing worst fears. This particular monster? Psychiatry. I enter with stigma and exit with side effects.
  • Transforming Rejection Sensitivity

    Transforming Rejection Sensitivity

    In an era of waning social ties, sensitivity to rejection is common. An article in Psychology Today offers solutions.
  • The Path

    The Path

    The Path of the Waking Heart When one opens unconditionally to love, pain, and desire, an aching heart becomes a...
  • The Veil of Total Darkness

    The Veil of Total Darkness

    Being in total darkness recently took on new meaning for me.  Rock bottom is not necessarily a bad place to...
  • At War with Depression

    At War with Depression

    You may have won many battles with depression. Why can’t you win the war? A new way to...
  • America’s Waning Social Ties

    America’s Waning Social Ties

    Americans report fewer close friends and confidants than they did years ago. For most people, their only close confidant is...