breakdown Archive

  • Five Phases of Transformation

    Five Phases of Transformation

    I am being reassembled.  The process is unmistakeable.  It’s not over yet, but I feel myself entering a final phase,...
  • Transformers

    Transformers

    On a walk through the park along Lake Wingra, I was contemplating the nature of deep transformation.  I imagined a...
  • Happy Crazy Eight Day

    Happy Crazy Eight Day

    An adventure in facing worst fears. This particular monster? Psychiatry. I enter with stigma and exit with side effects.
  • Flying By Instruments

    Flying By Instruments

    I woke up one morning feeling as though I’d been impaled on a spike, helpless, vulnerable, and shivering with agony. ...
  • Uncoiling the Downward Spiral

    Uncoiling the Downward Spiral

    Certain needs tend to evoke emotional responses that make the situation worse in a way that aggravates the need, which...
  • Not Enough to Be Numb

    Not Enough to Be Numb

    When weeks of grief and turmoil are broken by a neutral calm, the relief is welcome, but the journey is...
  • At War with Depression

    At War with Depression

    You may have won many battles with depression. Why can’t you win the war? A new way to...
  • Truman Falls Apart

    Truman Falls Apart

    On the verge of seeing through his illusory reality, the main character of The Truman Show has a veritable nervous...